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| Tuesday, October 17, 2006 |
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My granny is doing OK so far. She is in renal failure amongst other things but those things are to be expected at this time. Gary is doing the same, Herbie, as we call the cyst, lol, is still being a pain. Clay is in exams this week and working hard. I am here, taking life as it comes.
I don't believe I normally talk about myself on my blog. Pretty strange huh? I always feel there is not much to say. I have been thinking that there are things to be said about myself. Every day I have to reach inside and pull out my strength to meet the new day. That strength comes from God and I am so fortunate to have Him in my life and guiding me. I have been negligent in being a good witness for my Father and Jesus my Saviour. I know my faith shows to some who read my blog regularly but I wonder how much shows to the passerby. I want everyone to know how God works in my life on a daily basis. If it wasn't for God and Jesus I would of killed myself by now. My faith is the only thing that keeps me from doing so. Not Clay and Gary as some would assume, but my faith. Clay and Gary would move on eventually. If only people could see the miracles that God works in my life on a daily basis I believe that there would be those that don't believe come to believe. Our lives are full of things that are remarkable. It is a miracle when we sit down to a meal because $125 just don't go very far for 2 weeks groceries for 3 people, but we make it, and we buy dish soap, laundry soap, tooth paste, shampoo, conditioner, toilet paper, etc. with that $125. By the grace of God is the only way I know that it is done. Once this year we had to have the church buy us groceries. There again is another miracle. God working through this church. The church also paid to fix our van, it still needs fixing as the other person didn't do right, but the church is paying to have someone else fix it right. Then when the van was out of order there was these strangers to Gary and I, Clay knew them, but we didn't, they called and offered us the use of their vehicle. In our lives things like this happens all the time. Yet I will worry. I don't know why I worry. I should know by now that God will always intervene. I do try to lay all things at God's feet but I am not perfect. I want so much to share my love and the love I recieve with all those that I know and even those I don't know. It is hard when I pray at night, I can pray for hours. I don't want to miss anyone. I have fell asleep praying and woke in the middle of the night to continue the prayer. I have done that several times in a night. Then there are nights when I fall asleep before my prayer is done and it don't get finished and man do I feel guilty. Like especially when I fall asleep in my chair unknowingly. I worry sometimes about the fact that I am a sinful person whether my prayers will be answered, but so far I feel that they are answered as God sees fit. Well, I have gone on and on today. I will touch on this subject on another day sometime. Love and hugs to all my friends and even you strangers that happen by.
Later. God bless. Teressa. |
posted by Teressa @ 2:26 PM  |
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Hi Teressa,
Boy, when it rains it pours, doesn't it? I am glad that somehow, your needs are being met. I can't imagine how you cannot show God's love. You just being you shows God's love in you.
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It always shows Teressa, I sometimes wish I had your faith in something.
Sometimes when I read your posts I can't comment because I wonder why you and yours have to endure so much.
I often have thought of the story of Job after reading your posts.
I don't think that you should feel guilty about falling asleep without finishing your prayers. I believe you pray for everyone all the time.
Thanks.
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Thanks for sharing yourself with us today. No matter how you feel about yourself, everytime I read your blog your Christian spirit shines thru even tho you are under such a hard period in your life. I admit your church has been a great help to you and your family. Right now you are unable to do much except to share your love for everyone anytime you can. You might not think that is much but it is truely. Thank you for being you. I am with Nitwit I wish I had the fortitude that you have, even tho you don't think you have it. I'm glad I read your blog today. Please take care of yourself..hugs, Linda
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I just looked in on you for the first time and what a pleasure your post was to read. The gratitude you show is wonderful. We can all learn something from your attitude and trusting spirit.
You don't have to worry about being a sinner. We all are, but our sins have been forgiven. God's grace is wonderful.
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I know this is days late, but hope granny is doing ok still.
I admire your faith. I wish I could have faith.
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Hi Teressa,
Boy, when it rains it pours, doesn't it? I am glad that somehow, your needs are being met. I can't imagine how you cannot show God's love. You just being you shows God's love in you.