You're not losing your mind, Sweetie. These things happen to us all from time to time. It's not a character flaw or anything like that. Have you been overly stressed lately and just held it all in? I get that way sometimes if I've had a stressful time and I've restrained my emotions for a while. It will pass. You are a good person...we all know this.

 

Teressa, If it helps any, I've said things to my kids in the heat of the moment before that I so immediately regretted. We're only human after all, we're flawed. If you apologized to Clay, I know from what you've written about him that he'll understand. Sounds like we're both in the dumps today!

 

We all have bad days....It will get better...

 

we all say things we don't mean when we're under stress. you've asked forgiveness, let it go.

 

Sounds like you are human to me. Sometimes, we just let our stress our anger come out sideways and aim it in the wrong direction, ya know? You have asked for forgivness. Maybe you need to ask for help in forgiving yourself.
Take care! And try not to be too hard on yourself.

 

This is just a downward slide. You've had a lot going on in your life right now. It's understandable to be irritable and such. Are you slipping into a depressive episode? Keep an eye on it.

 

I agree with what everyone else has said, we've all made the same mistakes. But one thing I'm wondering, have you started any new meds or ended any lately? I've had 2 meds make me extremely aggressive & more impulsive than usual. If you have changed meds, I'd look them up on the internet for their side effects. Don't beat yourself up though, k?

 

This is one of those times when I keep an eye on my mood chart and make a note of the "little things".

On the slur: you're in a society which has gone mad. You're not making these things up for yourself. You're ~repeating~ what everyone around you is saying. You're a sensitive microphone and you are amplifying insanity of the worst sort. First, commend yourself for being aware of it. Second, think about how you can change the behavior, catch it before hand. What can we do, if anything, to help you now?

On the tantrum: these happen. If you find yourself entertaining homicidal thoughts and preparing equipment, take yourself down to the ER. It won't hurt you to call your shrink and see what s/he thinks. These things sound like the makings of an episode.

You're just going through a mood swing is my guess. Good for you that you are sensing that these things aren't right. Good for you.

 

Thanks for your words of support. You always have the greatest way of saying things and I always listen. So, if you want to belt out a nasty remark or two, go right ahead. Sometimes we let things build up inside us and it has to get out somehow.

 

There is so much going on in the world right now it makes us all a little anxious at times. Don't beat yourself up over it.

As for Clay, if he was being disrespectful, you had every right to pin his ears back. I know you feel bad about it, but he has to learn to control his mouth too. Sit him down and explain it to him just that way. You can only be pushed so far.

I've done the same things and always feels bad about it afterwards. You're only Human.

HUGGSS!!

 

When you focus on negative thoughts and feelings, it poisons you, tinting your mind and heart with darkness.

There's nothing you can do about the war, the Muslims, Bush, or anything else in the wider world; stop thinking, talking and writing negative things on these topics, and your natural sweetness of nature will come flowing back.

 

Hi,I ran into you on blogmad,sounds like you just might have had a bad day,things will improve,I like your blog,keep blogging.

 

Thanks Teressa! I'm happy they fixed it too!!! Yeah!

 

I'm with everyone else, you have had a hard row to hoe here lately, many problems. I snap at people too, but you have to push me hard to make me snap at you. You've been pushed OVERBOARD here lately, sickness in your family many problems, your own health. There's no crime in telling kids DCF is coming for them. Amanda told me one time when she was 14 that she was gonna call the law on me because I wouldn't give her her own way. I picked up the phone, dialed and have the phone to her. Kids really push us these days. Teenagers are very miserable human beings. Please don't blame yourself. Far better to get things that bother you off your chest. You are still the kindest, sweetest and most understanding person I know. Nothing to feel guilty about. As much as I love my baby to death here, he is in his 2's and I shout, smack hands (not hard) and let him know he is out of line. I feel so bad when I see that little bottom lip quiver. But if we don't set them straight, wouldn't it be worse for them in the long run? There. Now I feel better. This is the first time I've admitted here that I have to chastize the baby to try to teach him right from wrong. So you helped me just now, not knowing. Our patience is not unlimited. Don't worry, Teri. It's OK hugz, Linda