I wished there could be a way to change this thought of your fathers, i guess it isn't all his fault, i guess he was brought up in a close minded time, i hope your father understands this. Joi gin.

 

Oh Teressa, so much bad news! I can understand why you just want to sleep. As for your relationship with your dad...take the high road. Keep working on the relationship and accept his stance on the whole depression thing. Your illness is not validated by whether or not he accepts it as legitimate.

 

I try to sleep off my depression too.

As for mental illness being made-up...i fight the same battle with my family too.

We're here for you.

 

Sleeping is a defense mechinism many of us use to give us release from reality. You are not alone Teressa.

I am so sorry about the medical problems in your family right now. This is tough to handle, but remember we are all here for you.
God Bless

 

Girl- don't worry about the length of your blog. Sounded like you needed to get some things off your chest, so to speak.
Yes, I understand the sleep and the quiet of the night. I find myself more and more doing like what you are saying, sleeping to avoid things. And in the night, I don't have to deal with them.
Bummer about your Dad not believing in Mental Illness. You can't please everyone and he may be someone you can't please. You have tons of people that do support you, but it's always that one that bothers us, isn't it?
I'm so sorry about the health problems with your step-dad and your granny. It's so hard to watch our parents grow older. Isn't it? I worry about my Dad all the time, even though he's healthy. I can't imagine what you must be going through.
Take care Teressa. You are such a kind hearted woman!

 

so much to worry about. no wonder you just want to sleep.
i'm sorry that your dad feels the way that he does. i have had a few people not understand about my illness and i know what it's like. and wanting to get closer to him, i imagine that can get in the way.
i'm also sorry to hear about max. everyone must be walking on eggshells just waiting. it's a horrible thing.
it must be a hard thing for your mother to accept that her mother has a problem. is your mother an only child? forgive me, i forget.

 

My gosh, you've got a ton of worries on your mind. I feel like we're 2 peas in a pod. I've got so much worry & stuff on my mind, I've been sleeping about 18 hours a day. Like you, I just don't want to be awake right now. Sometimes life just throws everything at us all at once, doesn't it? I hope something changes in both of our lives, goodness knows we could sure use a break.

 

Thank you so much for the wonderful comment. I needed to hear that and you are so supportive. Thank you, Teressa, if ever you doubt why you are on earth just remember the little things you do to help people like me. God Bless

 

If the Lexapro is working for you, I hope your Dr. can give you free samples. That's how I get mine. The only time I seem to have the lexa-comas is when we do the increase of 5 mg. This was the last increase. I should be okay in a day or so. I do feel less depressed. So, maybe this is the one. Keeping my fingers crossed.
Seriously, ask your Dr. about free samples.
I think insurance doesn't cover Lexapro because it's similar to Celexa, so they think it should work the same way. Ughhhhh!
Take care sweetie!!

 

The brain is every bit as much of an organ as the rest of the body. I find it strange that there are people who believe that there's nothing inside the head except maybe a blob of unruffleable fat or air.

There's nothing you can do about your father. His attitudes about his mental illness and his denial of his health problems can't be changed by you. Still, it is hard, very hard.

Remember that you're not alone in this. We're listening.

 

Mornin' Teressa, you have so much on your mind these days, of course it's better to sleep thru it. Sometimes sleep is all that's left to us. I slept all the time when I was on Tegretol. I'm sorry that your Dad doesn't understand. There's people like that where I come from. Because my older sister has Down's Syndrome (or Mongolism" as the used to call it, people said our house was the "crazy" house. Kids didn't come to visit. Maybe the parents thought my sister's illness was catching. This is why when I had my first bi-polar attack I didn't want anybody to know. To be assiciated with the mental hospital down there was enough for people to regard you with suspicion, like you'd freak out on them or something. I don't think you will change your father's way of thinking but it is a shame he can't open his mind a little and accept that you have much to deal with. I' more worried about your mother. She has to deal with your granny's forgetfullness and your stepfather's illness and depression. I guess she can only deal with one thing at a time. Maybe this is why she is in denial about Granny. I'm glad Tracy is around to help out. So many worries, I feel so bad for you. All you can do is be there for them as best you can. Sorta like me, because all my relatives are far away. Sometimes an understanding person like yourself who listens can do more good than another person who does physical help but doesn't allow the other person to get things off their chest. We can all do just as much as we can do. I saw someone else mention the c-pap machine.ine is just sitting there gathering dust. I saw everyday I am gonna clean the hoses, headpiece etc. but the last time I wore it I woke up with my throat feeling like it was in the deaert. I can't really call the people about it because I've never really paid them anything. The insurance is paying their part. I threw it in the pile with my other things I'm going bankrupt over. That is a whole new book and chapter. For your family, all I can say is,do what what you do beat. Prayer can work miracles as you know. And a loving and understanding heart like yours is a gift that is hard to come by these days...love&hugz, Linda

 

Teressa please forgive the wrong keys I seem to be hitting today...I always read over my comments AFTER I submit, then I see all the typos,:)

 

Mornin Sweetie...
Like you told me about Dale's illness, some people just make up their mins about something and that is that. I know a lot of people think mental illness is a choice. Right. like anyone would want to feel like that.
Dementia is so tough, you just can't out think it.
Montel William's program may help with the costs of your dad's med's evn yours maybe.
Here is the link:
http://www.freemedicinefoundation.com
General Income Eligibility Criteria: Individuals with family incomes ranging from below the national poverty level up to $38,000, and in some cases, families with annual incomes as high as $60,000 can receive free drugs. Each sponsored drug has it's own eligibility criteria.
I hope this helps.
The one thing I admire about you is your faith. You have more faith than anyone I have ever met. I admire you a lot. You have been a great inspiration to me.
{{{{big hug}}}}
Great I sound like a teletubby.

 

P.S.
Sleeping is ok and healing. You have a lot on your mind, plus your own health issues. Emotional exaustion can be the biggest butt kicker there is. Sleep. Don't feel bad about it.
Love ya...

 

I got hit by a whole bunch of bad news myself here about 4 years ago. First I lost my job I had had since high school. Then my cousin Jason was crippled for life when he was struck by a drunk driver. That was followed up by another cousin being killed in a house fire. To top all of this off, my dad learned that his diabetes had worsened and he was forced to retire. Since that time his health has slowly delcined giving way to congestive heart problems and weak kidneys.

I guess the point I'm getting at is that I understand where you are coming from. I made it through my tough patch and I hope you will do the same.

 

Sounds like your dad is too old or stubborn to change his mind about mental illness. That is too bad because it is real and it affects people and they need help dealing with it. Sorry to hear about your other family members. I hope things work out for them. Take care.

 

Yeah, I had that crap with "your illness is created by you." That was a long time ago now and my granddad is gone now. Everyone else is fairly understanding about it. Hey, you, get some sleep.