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| Monday, July 31, 2006 |
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It has been awhile. Nothing exciting going on.
I have a mouse that got caught in one of our traps last night, that when caught, took off trap and all and went under our washing machine, ugh. He is now under there doing something, I am afraid it is chewing it's own leg off or something. When the trap went off the poor thing squealed and squealed. I felt bad. I don't know what else to do about them. They are taking over the house. I have let it go for a few years. I thought it was only one mouse but we have caught 2 and there is still one in Clay's room and one by my desk here. They are coming from the field next to us where the man keeps his horses.
I slept most of the day away today. I did get up early for a pdoc appointment this morning. It was at 8:30. I got there and the receptionist asked me what she could do for me and I was like what? I just said that I have an appointment. She asked if I hadn't recieved my letter. I knew nothing about a letter. I said no. Come to find out my appointment had been changed to Thursday at 8 in the morning. This new pdoc only comes on Thursdays. I can imagine what that is going to be like. Cramming two days worth of patients into one. I am so glad that Jennifer, the front office worker, remembered that I liked my appointments as early as possible. Now I just have to try and keep my appointments early because I do not want caught in the afternoon mess.
Max actually didn't get started on his treatments until the 24th. It went well. The radiation made him sick though. He had his second chemo treatment today but I haven't heard how that went yet. They said the 2d or 3d treatment would be when he started feeling the effects. I hope it wasn't today. The treatment plan is not 12 weeks as previously told, it is 6 weeks. Momma thought they would do 6 weeks of chemo then 6 weeks of radiation but they are doing them at the same time. I don't know, I just relay what I am told. Momma told me that she don't know if she will ever feel rested again. This is wearing her out too. Max needs a lot of attention and he wants momma to be the one giving it. They believe that he had another small stroke last week. He had all the symptoms. The doctor's at the VA where they treated him for the strokes said there was nothing they could do if he was having one, so there isn't much use in taking him in. Not unless it affects him extremely. This time it affected his motor skills some more and his speech more. They just said he would continue to have them because the plaque was there and coming loose. I really don't trust these VA hospitals. Sometimes, well a lot of times, they just don't make sense. That is why momma is 3 hours from home with Max and not going to one of the two closer to home. Because this one made better sense in their approach to things.
Clay has finished 43 questions of 100 of his summer homework. He starts school on the 21st of this month and I really fear that he will not have this done. It is making me a nervous wreck. He seems nonchalant about it and I fear that this kind of attitude will not get him through 3 advanced placement classes. I thought that he couldn't drop a class until the Christmas break but Gary reminded me that he could drop within the first 2 weeks of school. I just don't want this hurting his credits for graduation. Clay is intelligent but I think his glib attitude towards things will be a hindrance. I don't know, maybe I compare my OCD approach to things and I just don't know what is normal.
Gary is having some health issues. He can't go to the doctor because of no insurance. His blood pressure is over a hundred on the bottom most of the time. He is having pains in his gall bladder area and in his back. He also has a problem with one of his testicles being very swollen and sore, I am sure he would be happy to know that I posted that on the internet, lol, but it is really a serious problem. I guess we wait until it is time for the ER before he does anything. Then we will have an outlandish bill from the hospital that we cannot afford and that will cause him to have more stress which will lead him to having chest pains again. A viscious circle. I pray for him repeatedly and I have faith that God will take care of things. I shouldn't be worrying about it, but I do even knowing better. I am near a panic attack just typing this. Need to stop thinking of it.
I am in my own world which is where I prefer to be at the time. I would rather Gary and Clay do their things and leave me alone. My stress level is high and I just want to play hearts on the computer or go to diabetic chat. Sometimes diabetic chat is too much for me. I know it is not good for Clay for me to get like this. He feels so lonely as it is without my episodes. I just pray I don't do permanent damage to him and he grows to be bitter as an adult. I zone everything around me out most times and Clay hates when I have to ask him what he said because he knows I was ignoring him. Not that I single him out to ignore. I just zone everyone out. I guess it is a shield that I learned as a child that I never let go of.
Later. God bless. Teressa. |
posted by Teressa @ 5:05 PM  |
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Hi Teri! I once caught a mouse that did chew all 4 of its feet off. It broke my heart. Ugh...
My cousin has been having both radiation & chemo at the same time. They will put marker on him for the radiation & he'll have to keep it on. Just in case you see him, so you won't be surprised. I forget how long it took her to get sick, but she gets her treatments on Thursdays & feels sick on Sundays & it lasts for a few days. It all depends on the strength & type of medicine they give him. They will also give him something for the nausea, to help so he doesn't get as sick as he normally would. I hope this helps a little.
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Oh I'm so glad you have posted! I went thru a phase where I was having mice in here. Gene used to keep peanuts in the shell on his little table and I thought nothing of it. Meanwhile this beady eyed fieldmouse would run arounf the livingroom late at night and make fun of me just sitting there. Gene set traps but I don't have anything to do with what happens, don't want to see it. I found out how they were getting in. There was a hole next to where they took out one of my doors and made a window, and once I sealed this off with duct-tape, I didn't notice anymore. But then again I have Lady here, and any mouse that dares show up here will be toast. Maybe you better get a cat :) It seems Max is holding his own. It would be so nice if he could have hmecare come in and give your mother a break. I don't know if the VA will pay for it but it's worth a try. Clay's bright he will get the remainder of his work done. Kids are so oblivious to what worries and frustrations they put us thru. Sorry about Gary's health problems. Was he in the service? Can he go to the VA? Not that they are the best (Gene went there once for his stomack ages ago and wasn't impressed at all but at least it's somewhere to go, better than nothing if you have no private insurance. Something isd always better than nothing....Don't worry about the zoning out. All of us on pills do the same thing. I spend HOURS here. Just like you go in Diabetic chat I spend a lot of time in the Depression Forums..a lot of support and encouragement. If ever you want to check it out, I'll send you the link....well my pills are cutting in and I have to lay down. But I saw you had posted and had to come over to comment....take care, so glad to hear how you are doing. Hang in there...love, Linda
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oops sorry I wrote a book....
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Teri, I really hope something good happens to you and your family. I hate the amount of stress that you all have taken on. I am always amazed at your strong faith-I never could be like that.
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'Im peach Bush? No, 'Im banana.
You were honored in the Carnival of the Bipolars:
http://paxnortona.notfrisco2.com/?p=4293
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Teri have you heard anything of Lisa? She hasn't posted in days. I sent her an email last night but no reply..I hope she is ok...hugz Linda
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Hi Teri! I once caught a mouse that did chew all 4 of its feet off. It broke my heart. Ugh...
My cousin has been having both radiation & chemo at the same time. They will put marker on him for the radiation & he'll have to keep it on. Just in case you see him, so you won't be surprised. I forget how long it took her to get sick, but she gets her treatments on Thursdays & feels sick on Sundays & it lasts for a few days. It all depends on the strength & type of medicine they give him. They will also give him something for the nausea, to help so he doesn't get as sick as he normally would. I hope this helps a little.