| Friday, January 06, 2006 |
| March 14th 2005 |
Life Goes OnHere I am 41 and still dealing with all the depression and yuck I have been for years. You would think there would come a time when I would be better. All the meds they have tried have been useless. They put me on the meds for my bipolar disorder and now I have no highs. I liked my highs. Now it is just blah. Now the manic depressive state, ugh. This being disabled has caused more problems that what actually caused my disability, if that makes sense. I was exposed to high levels of formaldehyde working in the garment industry and now have high levels in my body. It wreck havoc on my system. Now I deal with other problems not associated with it. Like diabetes, high blood pressure, and congestive heart failure. Things cause by the poisoning are chronic pain, asthma, COPD, and multiple chemical sensitivity. I am so sick of being sick, lol. Anyway, onto better things. I have a wonderful husband who is very tolerant of me and a son who has stepped up when needed. I am stuck in this chair except on rare occasions and my son is learning to cook. He is doing a great job. He is still leary of frying anything, not that we need the fried foods, lol. He got popped a couple times and it scares him to fry. Tonight though he gets to fry some bacon. We will see how he does. My husband works nights for wal-mart and is sleeping or he would be able to do the cooking. As it is my husband does all the dishes and laundry, as well as both of them keeping the house somewhat picked up. I miss being able to clean. I griped about how they did things for a few years and realized I better just be happy that they are doing it and just leave them alone. I clean around my chair, that is all I can do and I am happy to do it. I need to do some of it now. I need to sort my meds out, they are all over my desk and beside my chair, ugh. I hate sorting meds. It is depressing to have to look at them all together. I guess it is a pretty day outside, I wouldn''t actually know since I can''t go out there and I am not dressed so the door is closed. The wind seems to be blowing to beat it though, my wind chime is just a chiming. I got to go and clean around my chair now. Later.
March 14, 2005 2:11 PM |
posted by Teressa @ 11:26 AM  |
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