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| Friday, January 06, 2006 |
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Gary...So Darren and I move in together. I am really enjoying my new found freedom. Darren and I are just friends and I have not ties. I love my job and there are parties at my place on a regular basis with friends. I am drinking again and getting high. You may think there she goes again, but this time it will be different.
Darren and I would go to his aunt''s quite often and we would pass this farm and he would tell me that a good friend lived there but was in Arizona. Every time we would pass he would tell me this and it was getting annoying, lol. Then one day we pass and he says that his friend, Gary, should be home now. I tell him to go up and see then. So we go up to the house and Darren goes in for a bit and then comes out and says that Gary will be coming out to visit. Well, Gary comes out and I am like whoa. This is one good looking guy. He gets in the car and instead of him and Darren visiting, him and I do all the talking. We finally leave and when we get home I ask Darren if he thinks Gary would be interested in me. Darren tells me that Gary is so tied up in the farm that he won''t be interested. I make Darren promise not to tell Gary that I asked and I let it go.
One weekend we have a big party planned at our place and Gary is suppose to be there. I am so excited. I wait and wait but no Gary. I was so disappointed. I ended up making a huge mistake that weekend that caused me to quit getting high. I slept with someone that I should never have slept with. I was so drunk and high that it just didn''t matter at the time. The party over, and being the next day, I find out from Darren that he was suppose to pick Gary up for the party as Gary would not drive after drinking but Darren got messed up too early and forgot. So, then I knew that Gary didn''t just blow us off.
One night Darren comes in at like 2 in the morning and comes in my room and wakes me up. He tells me that Gary asked about me and wanted to know if I might go out with him. I asked him if he told him yes! He said no because I had made him promise not to say anything. I was so beside myself. I told him to tell Gary to ask me. Darren told me that Gary would be there that day to deliver some fire wood. Gary shows up and asks me out. We make plans. I was so excited. I remember going to my sis''s and asking to borrow a dress and then going to my sis-in-laws to get ready. We had so much fun. It was like my first date ever. Everyone was so happy for me. I had finally met someone my own age. Gary came and picked me up and we went out to eat. We ended up back at my place afterward and I was surprised that he never made a move on me. We just talked til 4 in the morning, Gary had to be back on the farm at 6:30 and I had to be at work at 7. We got a couple hours sleep and then went our separate ways, but not without making plans to meet later that evening.
Gary came over that evening and we cooked out and sat outside and watched the sun set. It was heaven. I could sense that he was totally into me. I knew I was totally into him. He went home, but a trend was started. We were basically inseparable except for work. I would get off work and go to the farm and help him, then we would go back to my place. During this time I took on another job and our time was really limited then. I was wearing myself thin. I did that for awhile but then decided that I didn''t need the second job so I quit both jobs and took another at a different garment factory. We met in February and in June the discussion of marriage came up. Gary had no children and I was told I would never carry beyond 2 weeks. I always miscarried at 2 weeks. I told Gary that I could not say yes until I was sure he was O.K. with that. He kept trying to convince me and finally did and we set a date to get married on May 16th the next year.
Gary''s mother went to Arizona for a month in August and I stayed with him during this time. When she came home I continued living there. At one point I started getting the "flu" a lot. I would wake up every morning and get sick. I had gained 8 lbs and could not stand my pants being tight on me. I always wore tight jeans and this baffled me. My breasts were sooooo sore. Gary kept telling me I was pregnant and I denied it. I told him I couldn''t be. Well, I kept missing work because of getting sick and they kept wanting me to make up my time on Saturday''s, which I was too tired to do. Finally one morning I woke up Gary and told him I was calling in to quit and that I was going to the health department. I went to the health department not expecting much. When they came back with the results being positive I still did not believe them. They kept trying to convince me that it was true. They gave me an envelope full of information and I left in shock.
Later. Blog on and God bless.
March 28, 2005 5:58 AM |
posted by Teressa @ 11:55 AM  |
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